Update

alright im back to blogging. been kind of bz for the last few wks working odd jobs here n there.
i dont know why but despite working. i still feel v broke. probably becos i had spent most of my hard earned $$ on a new laptop. cost me $1100. that's almost equivalent to 2 mths of my salary working as a not so hardworking promoter. lol! :X
i rmb i did mention about a warehse/logistic job n an admin job on my last post right? ok 1stly. guess what happen to the warehse/logistic job? omg.. that bugger flew my kite! eff him man srsly. he didnt even bother to inform me that the job was canceled. wasted my time.
next is the admin job. i was selected for the admin job at cpf bldg. n it was a holy shit experience.
u know everyday from as early as 830am to 6pm. i sit at my desk n all i did was just sorting papers! that's right. i sort papers from mon to fri. 8.5 hrs everyday.
n everyday when i go to work. all i see is piles n piles of papers on my desk n a white wall that im facing. can u imagine the agony n torment i have to go thru. i feel so emo when i was working there. with no 1 to talk to since every1 is bz with their own work. srsly it was a pure torture!
n so. aft 2 wks. i quit the cpf admin job. cant stand it anymore. becos there's more to life than just sorting papers for 6.5 bux per hr everyday.
aft that i went for those kind of event jobs. i was working at this conference event at marina mandarin hotel. was paid $6/hr with meals provided. n by meals i mean 5 star hotel food. yummy yum yum! :D
n then i also got this $7/hr wkend htc promoter job. i worked for 1 wkend n was fired since then. becos the boss feels that i dont have the "right working attitude". srsly it was total crap. i didnt even know what i did. 1stly he doesnt gives instructions clearly. n aft that when i clarify with him. he'll give me that fcuked up face n scold me for asking stupid qns. totally absurd.
that was my 2nd time that i got fired if i didnt rmb wrgly. the 1st time was a few yrs back when i working at a cafe n i failed to meet the "standard waiter's requirements" set by the cafe boss. another weirdo.
ok now like what i've mentioned earlier. i did bought a new laptop at the comex event n sold my old 1 away. i went n downloaded a few games like prototype n borderlands n played intensively for almost the whole of last wk. n now im getting bored of it alr. lol. becos i've completed the storyline of the games. im a pro huh? hahahaha! n my next game is gg to be fifa11 that is gg to come out soon. woohoo! im v excited! XD
the reason why i went back to intensive gaming is becos i feel that this may be my last chance that i'll be happily gaming with no worries. i dont know how to elaborate it but in short. i dont c myself gaming aft i step into the working world. instead i'll be working v hard n taking my work srsly b4 i find myself a rly gorgeous gal n maybe get married? lol! ok just ignore the latter part. :P i almost forgot. i need to go SIM biz course 1st b4 i can find a rly gorgeous gal. hahahaha! XD
i think this sums up on what i've been doing for the past few wks. 1 more mth to enjoy b4 i get enlisted. hmm i think i'll be looking damn awesome aft i go thru army. imagine me with the sexy tanned skin n well toned muscles from head to toe. omg.. im gg to be irresistible! hohohoho!
to be continued.. ;)

Rotting..

u know. if u ever see me updating my blog frequently. it just means that im effing free. lol!
every1 seems to be bz with their work n stuffs. both my parents got to go to work. while 2 of my younger brothers has got sch to attend. n here i am rotting at home. zzz..
i've been thinking a lot of what should i do during this free time. i srsly dont want to sit in front of the laptop the whole day. i'll become an idiot sooner or later if i continue doing this.
i got no gals to date. i cant ask the guys out either becos they got work n their own commitments. so when i go out i usually go out alone. sounds v emo huh? it's ok. im used to it haha.
honestly this is my 1st time that i got no 爱情 in my heart. i've always been in love with some1 for the past 12 yrs since pri sch. but now it's just an empty room. a vacuum. n worse i dont have a "target". that's y i say. i need to go to SIM biz course. lol!
anw i finally got myself a job. tho it's only a temporary 1. going to do warehse/logistic stuffs from 17 to 20 aug. 8 bucks per hr! woohoo! n also. i've applied for some admin jobs in the banking sector. hopefully i'll be shortlisted. hmm see how it goes.
almost forgot. i went to my 1st picnic at marina barrage a few days ago. it's a gd experience. got my 1st experience flying a kite as well. i successfully flew the kite to it's maximum height until some bugger hit my kite n aft that the kite got tangled n couldnt fly anymore. damn it.
ok i'll stop here for now. becos today's the friday the 13th. lol! to be continued.. hohoho!

Job Hunting.. Again.

ok. i've quit working as a CKJA promoter. well i dont have anything against it. just want to quit n move on to sth else. but on the contrary. i dont know what i want to do next. lol! i guess im fine with any kind of job as long as it meets my criteria - a gd pay n reasonable working hrs.
i went online to see if is there any gd jobs available n there r a few. n out of the few. 2 of them r the exceptionally gd ones that got my interest.
the 1st 1 is an logistic asst job. i emailed to the person in charge but he/she didnt reply me. zzz.. the other 1 is an events helpers job. just sent the email few hrs ago. hopefully the person in charge will give me gd news asap.
i did went for the charles n keith interview a few weeks ago. n they rejected me for the 2nd time haha! the 1st time was back in 2007. when DS n i went for the interview aft our O levels. doesnt matter now anw.
the reason y i got rejected is becos they wanted me to work 10 hrs EVERYDAY for the whole of 3 months. n upon hearing this i straight away point them the middle finger. lol!
well not literally but i this is what i told them: "i believe that there must be a balance between work n play. furthermore im not in desperate need for $$. i just want to temporary work in the retail line for the experience. anw i think it's ok. thank u for the time." sth like this. n then that lady got the face to tell me that she'll call me back again. what kind of nonsense is that?
in summary. i rejected them. HAHAHAHA! X)
that's all for now. to be continued..

矛盾

有时候口口声声地对自己说：

“我玩得起。输了没关系。”

又或者是，

“没社么大不了。我拿得起，放得下。”

但心里却依依不舍。很不好受。超级不爽。


算了。我懒得去管这么多。

不重要的东西也不需要想这么多。

June Update

i guess it has become a norm that my blog is updated once in a blue moon. lol. so yep. im back again! :D
initially i wanted to wrote this entry in chinese. but i realise that it's kind of difficult for me to do that. havent been using my mother tongue for like 3 yrs plus. omg. i srsly need to brush up my chinese language!! :(
alright. continue from my previous entry. i was being shortlisted for the esprit job despite screwing up the interview. anyway it wasnt me who screwed up the interview. it was that HR lady! but in the end i rejected their offer becos the pay is too little.
CKJA (calvin klein jeans n accessories) then called me a few days later as DS recommended me to them. went for the interview n discussed the details. feel that the pay is acceptable n so i went for the job. but it was later on i found out that the working hrs n schedule over there is horrible!!
the company always wanted me to work full shifts due to lack of manpower. i even agreed to work full shifts for 3 consecutive days for them at the beginning when i was just an obedient n innocent employee. obviously it wasnt a v gd experience for me.
but subsequently. i learned more about the company from 1 of the more experienced promoter there. he's the 1 who taught me the tricks n stuffs. n from then on. i have become the 1 who arrange my own work schedule instead of them. ;)
i've stay in the company for 1 mth plus alr. getting paid 6 bux per hr to slack. but most probably im going to quit at the end of july. no particular reasons. again i just want to explore more options n gain more experience. from sunglasses to handbags. maybe im going to move on to perfumes or watches next or some other stuffs.
actually im thinking of working as a private investigator. i mean isnt it a v cool job?? following ppl around like some kind of secret agent. catching those men or ladies in adultery act. woohoo! sounds exciting right? lol! ok it's a just a random thought haha.
working stuffs aside. i almost forgot that im officially 20 yrs old alr. GQ organised a gathering for the june babies of 4A06 class at minds cafe a few days ago. had fun over there playing board games with free flow of snacks n drinks. also got to thank GQ for the cake she baked n the little pineapple cookie that penguin gave me. i dont know if it's called a cookie or not but it taste sweet. v sweet indeed. :)
ok i'll stop here for now. to be continued..

Once In a Blue Moon Update.. :O

sometimes. i wish that some1 can be there to help me up whenever i fall down. well it's not like i cant get up on my own. i was thinking maybe the process of getting up can be faster if there's some1 there to help. but well. i guess im used to it anyway. i can get up on my own.
life recently is kind of monotonous. not much ups n downs. perhaps due to the restriction of NS. im having mixed feeling for NS. i dont know whether i should be excited or worried. im stuck in between. lol.
i've quit the telemarketer job in search for a more "interesting" job. just want to explore more options since im v free now.
n so i was working as a sunglasses promoter for the past 2 weeks at the takashimaya square event. made a few new friends n realise that making new friends can be such a joy. though i didnt get to know any gorgeous gals. :X but it's ok. there's always another chance haha.
now the bad news. the end of the event = the end of my sunglasses promoter job. i do hope the company will call me back to work with them again. but it's v unlikely since im going to NS soon. :(
moving on from there. i went for the esprit interview. this may be the 1st time i've ever screwed up an interview. but on the other hand. this is also the 1st time i've met such a pathetic interviewer.
she doesnt has any courtesy - no greetings from her at all n all she gave was a not so sincere smile. she gave me those kind of dead fish handshake. the questions she asked were not v clear. n most shocking of all. she's in the HR department!
shocking stuff aside. u know what. i saw a gorgeous gal during the interview session! lol. but she walked away to somewhere while the people r waiting for their turn to be interviewed. n i didnt saw since then. sigh.. 有缘无份. :(
anyway. i doubt i'll be going into a relationship any time soon even if i met the right gal. once again becos of NS. u know. no ordinary BGRs can withstand the test of NS. unless u got those kind of v rare girlfriend who's fiercely loyal n faithful to u.
hmm it's been some time since i wrote sth in chinese. so maybe my next entry will be written in chinese. interesting huh? :)
to be continued..

Lonely. Different. Unknown.

u know when u've graduated from poly. life suddenly looks v real. becos this is the point of time when u have to make ur own decision that is going to determine ur destiny. n u cant run away from responsibility like how u do when ur in primary/secondary school or poly.
19 yrs of earthly life. i came to realise that the most reliable person is none other than urself. forget about ur friends or relatives for a moment. becos ur the only 1 who is going to shape ur life. ur friends r not going to do it for u. neither ur family members. that's ur responsibility. if run away from it. u'll pay the price.
of cos if ur born with a sliver or golden spoon. u dont have to wry about how u going to live. just relax n enjoy. but if ur some1 with a humble background like me. it's either u continue with ur mediocre life or u do sth about it. u see. that's the tough decision u have to make.
right now. im feeling somewhat stressed n unsettled. im in need of some guidance but there isnt any ppl who would understand n listen to me. even my parents dont fully understand me. so how am i suppose to talk to anybody?
my father n i. our way of thinking is too different. i guess it's becos of the generation gap. i bet he wont understand what im thinking n saying. trust me. we r totally 2 different person.
let me give an example. from what i heard from my aunts. they always told me that my father used to be a v gd student. every yr he's either 1st or 2nd in class. some1 who's v capable. hardworking. down to earth. so on n so forth. almost like a perfect gentleman. even til now i've nv heard him say a single vulgarity despite his foul temper.
but look at me. im a bad student. always late for classes. my results r not v gd. im lazy. i use vulgarities. im a bad boy. n the list of imperfections goes on. u see the big contrast? i wonder how im going to face my children next time. better keep my history a secret. lol!
my mother didnt have much education. i heard the highest education lvl she got is sec 4. so it's kind of obvious she wouldnt understand me as well. u know sometimes when i ask her a qn n she'll ans me sth that is off topic. like some1 ask u for ur name n u ans back with where u live. even though it's bloody frustrating. but i cant blame her. so in the end i just rephrase my qn.
my younger brothers.. forget about it. both of them have backside brains. (-_-)"
n then my friends. every1 has their own different ideas. so talking to them is pointless. n it just happens that their ideas r different from what i want. so i need some1 who is older n with experience to talk to.
the feeling of loneliness. it's v scary. but on the other hand. it makes u stronger. but that is if u can survive it. seriously i dont know if i can survive or not. im scared. im just a tiny n timid mouse u know. not a gallant horse yet.
im thinking of going back to church. where there r ppl whom i can talk to hopefully. n also where i can have some character n spiritual development. im still considering..
to be continued..