My Future?

^ this is not what i want.

recently i've been thinking about the future. as in what will i be doing few yrs down the road provided that im still not dead yet. haha. ok this is what i thought of. after i've graduate from SP i'll be going to NS for 2 yrs n after that i'll most probably go out to work. maybe i'll be working in a shipyard as a supervisor or maybe some other occupation? who knows. n i've figured it out that university isnt for me. becos i dont think my parants have the financial ability to send me to a local university. let alone overseas. i dont want to burden them any further also. so the only choice left for me is to work. unless i work n save up the $$ to go to university. i dont know..
so i've been thinking. am i going to slog n receive a pathetic pay for the rest of my life? i cant imagine that man. working for the next 40 yrs? omg. can die u know! haha. hmm let's say maybe im lucky enough n i get promotions. but wouldnt that just simply means that i'll have heavier responsibilities which translates into more work for me to do? so what if i got higher pay. i'll be too busy to spend the $$! n i'll have less time to spend with my family members n to do what i want. zzz..
i think life is more than just getting up early in the morning for work, get stuck in the traffic jam or board a crowded bus/mrt when going to work, come home feeling damn tired after work n then get ready for the next working day again. there's no life at all man. furthermore the standard of living is getting higher n higher. how hard working can one be? can one's hard work match with the rapid increase of the standard of living? there must be something that can break this 'vicious cycle'.
wouldnt it be great if one can choose what he/she wants to do on a monday morning? wouldnt it be great if one can spend quality time with his/her family members? wouldnt it be great if one can be financially free n break away from the 'rat race'? unless u r those kind of people who get excited going to work on a monday morning n enjoys slogging for the next 40 yrs.
anyway enough of my thoughts. time to get back to reality. i got back my thermodynamics n instrumentation results this week. i did well for thermodynamics but could have score higher if not for some careless mistakes. n sigh.. i did badly for my instrumentation becos my answer wasnt detailed n specific enough even though it's the right answer. it's ok. at least i know where i got wrong n i shall improve on it.
had c-programming test on thursday. to be specific it's actually c++ programming. haha. overall my program works. just that there's some part that didnt work well. n some part of the programming is wrong. lol. anyway the test is over. i did study for it n i hope i can get at least a B+. :)
ok i shall stop here now. time for me to do my projects n reports. bye!

Work Work..

i've early dismissal today. was dismiss at 1 instead of 3pm. ate lunch in school with classmates b4 going home. slept in the bus on the way home n miss my stop again. haha. so i alighted at hougang festival market n bought a strawberry sundae at mcdonalds. walk home from there after that. n here i am at home blogging now. :D
i've been feeling stress these few weeks. school work. relationship. part time job n career. so on n so forth. my life became so packed all of a sudden. well it seems that im still struggling to adapt to this 'new' schedule of mine. haha. trying to learn to move out of my comfort zone. but i hope im not trying too hard. lol.
2nd year's work is indeed tougher than 1st year's work. nonetheless im still able to cope. i cant imagine 3rd year's work man. omg. lol. as for relationship with her. all i can say is that i love her lots. even though there r some hiccups at times but somehow we'll solve the problem together. hehe. :) as for work..nothing great to mention about. zzz..
i'll stop here here now. got to rush to complete my homework now. going to work later also. sigh.. ok bye.

Study & Work

ouch! i've sprained my right thigh. haha. was actually playing soccer with bro just now in the afternoon n then i think i over exerted my leg. thus causing the sprain. i hope my leg will recover fast. anyway it's just a minor sprain. so there's nothing much to worry about. no worries. :)

i going to be busy these few days. got a few assignments to complete by this coming week. firstly i've 3 assignments n 1 group project for c-programming. the 3 assignments r needed to be handed in by this tuesday while the dateline for the project is 1 week later. i've completed 1 assignment so im left with 2 more to go. secondly there's 1 annoying tanker assignment (seriously im not going to sail after i graduate. so actually i dont see the point of studying this module. just studying it for the sake of my gpa). it's halfway done. next there's a math group project which is due by..erm..i dont know. lol! n there're more assignments n projects on the way as well. anyway my 1st priority now is to complete my c-programming assignments 1st. i should be able to complete all 3 of them on time. ;)
bad news! im going to have c-programming test in 2 weeks time! omg. i need to do well for this paper. if not gpa is going to slide. becos i didnt do well for the previous test. so this test is v crucial for me u know. n yup im going to start my revision now. not much time left. :( n also semester exams r nearing. time to gear up n give my best shot. btw tmr most probably i'll be getting back my thermodynamics n instrumentation result. hope i did well for both of them. wish me luck. X)
ok next thing - next concept. guess what's the new product for this month? it's actually some kind of v funny coasters. zzz.. well it's saleable but it's damn difficult. :( omg. i dont know how im going to carry on like this man. for the air-con thingy. so far i've only tried 1 block but sigh..no results yet. but i believe that some1 from that 1 block will surely ring me up for a deal. anyway i'll do more blocks this coming weekend. hopefully i can clinch a few deals. if all these plans fail. no worry. i still have a secret weapon up my sleeve. hehe. ;)
ok that's the end for this entry. bye! lol. XP
oh God. pls bless me.

Watch Ur Attitude

to whom it may concern.
congrats. u've successfully piss me off. satisfied? n im telling u. fcuk off if u got nothing better to do. ops. haha. seriously i dont like to use vulgar language. i only use it when im v upset. n yes im so upset with u right now. not just upset but utterly disappointed as well.
when u r unhappy it doesnt mean that u can anyhow vent ur anger on me u know. im not ur slave or whatsoever. i dont like this at all. so pls watch ur bloody attitude. if u r unhappy either u shut the fcuk up or u control ur emotions. simple as this. alright?
just for ur infomation. if u r unhappy with some1 else just tell that person. say it nicely of cos. why bottled up all ur feelings n suffer? isnt it easier to voice it out? omg. can u use ur brain n think?! n not let ur emotions to control ur actions. grow up lah! n stop being so fcuked up. if u cant control ur emotions then just keep ur bloody mouth shut. so that u dont offend the people around u. come on. this is for ur own good man. n may i suggest to u that if u want to have a listening ear or a shoulder (sexy shoulder like mine. lol! just joking) to lean on. can u ask nicely? i'll be more than glad to help or comfort u. let ur feelings be known to others so that there wont be so much misunderstanding. is this v difficult? zzz..
sigh.. i dont want to talk about this anymore. sick of it. kind of numb to it alrdy. anyway i'll stop here now. pls 4give my language. :(

Poor C-Prog. :(

got back all of my test results this week. except for thermodynamics n instrumentation results which i'll get them next week. so far all i can say is that im not v happy with c-programming n engineering math results. :(
ok let me begin with c-programming. i got back the result on tuesday. btw for c-programming. it's not a term test but just like those kind of class test. the test takes up 15% of the module n i cant believe that i did so terribly for it. i was stunned n shocked when i received my result. :( i seriously dont know what happen. i studied for it. i understand the computer language. i just dont understand how on earth did i get this result. omg.. maybe this is an indication that i've got my concept terribly wrong. i'll need to see the lecturer to clear my misconception asap. die die must see her! if not im going to flunk this module. :(
as for engineering math. i did fairly well for it but im not satisfied. becos i should have gotten higher if i had went to see the lecturer b4 the test. kind of regret now. i can only blame myself for poor time management. i'll also need to see the lecturer to see my paper so that i know where i've gone wrong. actually she gave out the papers on monday for checking purposes but i missed that lesson as i overslept. haha. other than these 2. i did well for the rest of the modules.
anyway i met up with honey ytd at jurong centre for a short dinner. i just ordered a waffle as i wasnt hungry at that point of time while she ordered a set meal. after that we went to IMM to shop for a while b4 we went home. becos i have the bus pass so i tried n took bus from there n it took me 2 hrs plus to reach home. damn tiring man! i should have take the train instead. haha.
i think i'll stop here for now as it's kind of late alrdy. i've got my 1st lesson (math) tmr at 8am. dont worry i wont be late. lol! ok shall go n sleep now. good nights.