Tanker Sux! :(

had my CPROG test a few days ago. well it wasnt v well done nor it's v terribly done. i was able to do the paper. my answers r kind of right to a certain extend but dont seems v right when i refer back to my notes. lol. but my concept of functions should be right becos i did the same thing as what i did for my last test which i did v well. maybe a few marks will be deducted for the wrong display of the functions. i also missed a 18 marks question becos i cant solve the question n i dont have enough time to analyse it. my brain cant process so fast u know. haha. i just need more time. sigh.. 18 marks just like this flew away right in front of my eyes. zzz.. heart pain man. :( i hope the lecturer wont be so strict in her marking.
had my TFAM test in the afternoon just now. i was totally stunned. my heart sank like how the ship titanic sank into the deep ocean when i saw the paper especially section B. becos ALL the questions in that section has got nothing related to what i've studied. as in what i've predicted didnt tally with questions that the lecturer had set. not even 1 question did i predicted correctly. zzz.. i tried to cheat but couldnt. ok i know it's wrong to cheat but desperate time calls for desperate measures. of cos i know the limits of how far i can cheat. i wouldnt want my friend to be in trouble also. so the only solution im left with is to use my common sense to answer the questions which i did for ALL the questions. never in my poly life i've got this kind of pathetic situation man. it was a living nightmare for that 1 hr. nvm forget it. i just hope for a pass will do. :(
anyway as usual i've been thinking a lot n i think that i need to change my posture. i need to learn to have more confidence in myself so that i can speak more confidently in front of people. i dont want to be a shy boy anymore. i want to be a more confident MAN. im serious. i feel so lousy whenever i cant talk properly in front of people becos i feel so shy. this isnt the feeling i want man. i want to have a professional n confident posture. so im going to work on this. hehe. :)
ok i'll stop here for now. got to focus on the exams which r coming up in 2 weeks time. im going to do well for the rest of the papers. hehehe! ok bye. :)