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the weather has been kind of humid lately. cannot take it man. i can even perspire straight after i bathe. omg. n worst it's causing so many pimples on my face. zzz.. it's alright. im used to this. this is life in spore haha.
anyway as usual i went to the monthly BBS that was held at SP a few days ago on sunday. actually b4 i went there i was feeling kind of discouraged n demoralised. becos i couldnt hit my goal n i know the problem is that i lack the courage n confidence. after the BBS the 1 impt lesson i took home is that no 1 succeeds without overcoming their fear. the only way to overcome fear is to trust in own ability n do the job anyway in spite of the fear. the more the practices the higher the confidence level. n this kind of knock some sense into me as i realise that i need take action if not i'll always be stagnant. :X
so guess what. i manage to come out with some plans. hehe! X) well i dont know if what i came up with is recommended or not. but that's what i could think of so far. i carried out the plan ytd. it was frightening man! i was hesitant as lots n lots of thoughts went through my mind. but in the end i did it. thank God for the courage haha. :D however the result wasnt gd. i carry it out again today n it isnt gd either. but if i see it from a long term point of view. it seems gd u know haha. ok at least im taking some actions. no wry. i'll improve on it. hehe! ;)
2 more weeks of holidays b4 sch starts. omg! i hate to wake up early in the morning at 6am. it's a torment for me u know. sigh.. n i know that i'll be late for sure. no need any guarantee or warranty card haha. but of cos i'll try to be punctual n v importantly is to pay attention in class. i dont want to study til 4am again. lol. :X also most of the modules for next sem seems interesting. hehe! although there r a few "orbit" ones. it's time to pull up my gpa. more maths n physics realated modules = higher gpa. X)
as for work. all i can say is thank God. so far so gd. i wanted to quit but i need to have a back up plan 1st u see. n that back up plan must also works. n that's the plan i mention above haha. hmm i've predict that it'll take some time b4 the back up plan works out. so i wont be quitting NC so soon. plus the pay from NC is gd. so no harm staying a little longer haha.
alright that's all for now. bye! to be continued.. :D

Yr 2 Sem 1 Results :X

ok i got back my results. well it was below average. got a sem gpa of 3.25 haha. feeling kind of disappointed. but didnt get bothered much. becos of a few reasons. 1st reason - i was kind of slack n lazy this sem n i didnt put in much effort. maybe that's y the results. 2nd reason - i've somehow decided that most probably i may want to take those 1 or 1.5 yrs private degree in the future if i want to further my studies. becos i see no point studying for another 3 yrs when i can complete degree studies in a shorter time. i know it's a few thousand bucks more expensive. but those $$ can be earned back. 3rd reason - i see no chance of me getting into a local Uni haha. im not academically incline u know. :X
back to the results. i got a cumulative gpa of 3.374. im satisfied with this n i intend to maintain my results of least at 3.3 haha. then for the modules grades. as expected i got an A or both MATH n ATHM. lol! :X hey becos i work v hard for this 2 modules ok haha. though it's last min hard work. lol! X) then i got a B+ for CAD. B for CPROG n EIC. C+ for INSTR n D+ for that bloody TFAM. the grade for CAD is understandable becos i did well for my weekly assignments but didnt do v well for my test paper due to the screw up n damn program. the grade for CPROG n EIC is kind of expected also. but for INSTR i was expecting at least a B. sigh.. i know i sux at memorising haha. as for TFAM. heck care lah. so in conclusion i think INSTR n that idiotic TFAM pulled my gpa down. sigh.. it's ok. it's not the end of the world haha. :D
anyway i went to her place on tuesday to ate spaghetti tgt with her. she made the spaghetti herself n surprisingly it was v nice n i had 2 servings. lol. :X n she was surprisingly sweet too when she gave me a gift which has the letter 'Z' on it. lol! X) thanks so much dear! :D
played bball again with terry n david in the afternoon n surprisingly i played well haha. omg! i was so damn.. u should know the word. no need for me to say. lol! XD ok lah anyway i was v exhausted after the bball game n my heels were in pain as i was too fast n too furious le. lol! joking lah. i think it's becos i didnt warm up b4 the game n thus the minor injury. i also sprained the middle finger of my right hand n the last finger of my left hand. zzz.. painful u know. ouch! :(
alright i'll stop here for now. gtg sleep alrdy. nights n to be continued..

A Noob To A Pro

i hate being a noob. the feelings of feeling lousy is so demoralising. sigh.. how can one fight for smthg when he doesnt have the skills to do so. but of cos i understand that every1 has to go through this phrase of being a noob 1st b4 turning into a pro. got to learn the basics 1st. tgt with lots of practices.
i know my capabilities. i believe i can achieve more n my best is yet to come. i know my performance graph. i'll start off v steady due to beginner's luck. n when that luck ran out the graph will drop to the min point n that's when i sux. then from there the graph will rise slowly as i learn the basics til it reach a constant when i've acquire the basic skills. n the graph will rise if i keep practicing til it reach a max point. that's when i'll turn pro then become a legend. lol! X)
anyway my family was invited to my cousin's (SX n PS) wedding ytd. v loving couple. n from what i heard is that they've been tgt since sec school days. well my job for ytd was to take photos. order given by father haha. tried to compete with the professional photographer. but seriously n obviously i couldnt. the flash from his camera is enough to blind my camera. n worst my father's camera is kind of lag also. zzz..
ok i'll stop here for now. gtg for lunch. bye! to be continued..

I Can

damn it. im so dead broke now even though i got a job. i used to be 'financially stable'. i was able to buy the stuffs i want or go out for a movie or dine at some restaurants. but i couldnt do that now. i have to manage my earned $$ n plan v carefully on what i can or cannot spend on. it takes just like $1 to determine what food i eat or whether i need to starve again or not. but fortunately. thank God that i didnt starve to death becos there'll always have food at home haha. n also thank God that the $$ i earned r enough for me to carry on. :)
thought of quitting. but after listening to 1 of the cd by Mike Wilson. it kind of motivate me to carry on. just like him. im sick n tired of being sick n tired. i need to do smthg about my life if not the vicious cycle will go on. n worst this vicious cycle doesnt just affect me alone. it'll also affects my current n future family members. look at the inflation now. it's hitting the roof man. n it's going to overshoot the roof in yrs to come. i dont want to suffer in the future u know. n i hate to see the people around me suffering. "God help those people who help themselves." make sense huh? i know it's not going to be easy. but i'll pick up the courage to do what i need to do. i can do it n i'll find a way to do it.
i know that it's just a matter of time. i just have to carry on doing what i need to do n i'll get the rewards.
i'll stop here for now. to be continued..

1st Week Holiday

met up with david, desmond n terry on monday to play bball at the new court near buangkok mrt. had breakfast with them at the kopitiam nearby b4 we played. it has been a v long time since i played bball. so my skills r kind of rusty le haha. but i could still can dribble, shoot n pass well even though not as good as b4. couldnt dribble as fast as b4. n for shooting not as accurate but passing still can make it. lol. :X
i rmb there was a period of time when me n david used to keep the bball court clean n thrash our opponents in the neighbourhood. omg. those were the days man. lol! XD it was during our school days sec 3 n 4 days when we were kind of 'addicted' to bball n we played bball almost everyday haha. i think our standard were almost on par with the spore national team. maybe slightly less skilled n experienced than them. lol. however after our O levels we deteriorated becos we stopped playing. sigh.. but it's ok lah. since we just played only for fun. doesnt really matter to me. :)
went to John Paul's chalet on tuesday to celebrate his bday. Wei Juan, Phyllis, Choon Teck n Hock Ann was there as well. we spent the night bbq-ing, playing poke cards n drinking vodka mixed with some other drinks. we also chatted tgt to catch up with 1 another. CT n HA were the 1st few to sleep. then after that followed by JP n WJ. Phyllis n i wasnt able to sleep yet so we continue to chit chat n shortly after that we went to sleep. but the fact is that i wasnt able to fall asleep until 7am. i was feeling so lonely for the whole night. zzz..
accompanied dear to see the doctor on friday as she was sick. had lunch at her place n went to an interview for a surveyor job after that at somewhere near novena. well the pay is attractive. $15 per survey. but sadly i dont think im going to get the job becos the interview was like less than 5 mins. the person just talk to me about the scope of the job n then told me that they'll call me again next week if im shortlisted. i was like asking a few questions to lengthen the duration of the interview. lol. anyway i dont expect much out of this interview. it'll be a bonus for me if i got the job. everything is worth a try. hehe. ;)
as for the air-con job. well i dont think it can work out for me. heck care n full stop. lol. :X but im still in next concept. selling chocs n photoframe now. chocs r still ok. but photoframe.. zzz.. orbit products again. no choice man. im financially tight n i need the $$. thank God for assisting me to sell away those orbit products becos i seriously dont understand y would people want to buy such crappy stuffs. lol. n thank God for my sales n weekly pay. it's time to change my job man haha.
alright i'll stop here for now. bye n to be continued.. X)

Yr 2 Sem 1

well sem exams ended a few days ago on friday. the feeling of freedom is so omg. hehe! X) overall i think i did rather well for my exams. there r high chances of getting an 'A' for ATHM n MATH. for INSTR, CPROG n CAD. chances of getting an 'A' is lower but still possible. then for EIC i think i'll most probably get a 'B'. TFAM forget it man. a 'C' or 'D' will do haha. heck care! :X
i rmb sleeping at 4am for 2 nights just to revise my ATHM. becos i couldnt sleep until i understood the topics. this module gave me lots of headache. but i enjoyed the module becos of the physics involved. it's interesting u know haha. MATH wasnt much of a problem to me. hints were given for INSTR n so i just memorise n understand the instruments given in the hints. CPROG, CAD n TFAM talk b4 alrdy. so i shall not talk further. lazy lah haha. :P n EIC (effective interpersonal communication) is actually my gems module. just got to do a role play for my final test haha. n that's all for my yr 2 sem 1. :D
i went out with her ytd to COMEX. was feeling kind of pissed with myself becos i overslept n didnt manage to meet her on time n she got upset with me. im so sry dear. :( but fortuantely i manage to "charm" her n she forgave me. lol! XD anyway we had a great time together. us usual i was "bullied" by her again. poor me huh? lol! we had lunch n dinner together n went home after she n i had bought our stuffs at sim lim n COMEX.
alright i'll just stop here for now. lost for words le haha. ok lah bye. to be continued..