Hmm..

sigh.. y did it turn out like this? i've got no idea. i didnt want it to be like this u know. hmm the relationship between ppl is indeed complicated huh?
is it really my fault? ok obviously it's partly my fault. but not totally though. since it takes 2 hands to clap. n of cos im sry for my bad. forgive me pls.
is it wrg to express myself? hey im not the kind of oh-so-obedient goody boy u know. i've got an attitude n i express it ONLY when im utterly upset or unhappy.
sometimes when i give in doesnt mean i allow ppl to step over my head. so dont anyhow throw tantrums at me. i'll get pissed off n retaliate. n when that happens dont accuse me of being bla bla bla.
pls dont compare me with other ppl. im not perfect. like duh! if the other party is so gd then by all means leave me n get lost. i only need a few ppl to believe in me.
is this the only soln? or is there a better one? i dont know.. the choice is not made by me alone. again it takes 2 hands to clap. im positive though.
or perhaps i just need a break. im tired n stressed out. esp when one's effort is not reciprocated.
to be continued..

CNY

well CNY is here again. which also means that i gtg msia soon. sigh.. CNY at msia = BORING!
im kind of reluctant to go over there. but no choice. it's a family tradition. n i got to respect it since im born as a chinese. so i guess i'll have to go with a open heart.
this time i'll be at msia for around 5 days instead of 7 becos i got sch. thank God n lucky me hehe. n u know what. i can alrdy predict what im going to do over there.
for the 1st 3 days i'll be spending the night at a cousin's bungalow. cool huh? yes it's luxurious but so what? all i did in that bungalow was lying on a bed or sofa n rot! im serious man. becos there's nth for me to do other than taking photos for my father n collecting ang baos with the pathetic msia rupiah currency. zzz.. but hopefully my cousin can bring me out to a movie or let me use his pc hehe! then i wont be so bored. lol.
the 4th day is the worst. my family would go to another "bungalow" n what's so special about this bungalow is that it's located in some kampung! sigh.. staying in that place it's like playing survival. got to outlast those irritating bugs for a day. lucky it's only a day. if not i'll turn into a jungle boy like tarzan. zzz..
as for the 5th day. i'll be on the way back to spore alrdy. not sure if i'll be taking a bus or car home. yet to be confirmed. n after that it's home sweet home! :D
ok i'll stop here now. to be continued.. happy CNY in advance! :)

No Worries :)

hmm was kind of slack this few weeks. that's y no post haha. but there's nothing to post about also. becos nothing much happen recently. just me going to school. being late as usual. though not everytime but most of the time. lol! :X
as for my term test results. omg. it sux man. i flunk MEK2 n SSTAB due to some misunderstanding. got only 30 plus marks for both of the modules. :( while the rest got 70 plus close to 80. but well i should still be able to make it. becos the term test is 20%. still got 80% more to catch up. so no wry. phew~
had CSW letter writing test ytd. well i should be able to score as i've got my format n content right. i was v satisfied with my work. just that the air-con was so cold that i almost had difficulty writing n i was shivering terribly. so it kind of slow me down. damn those air-cons haha. but lucky enough i was able to finish on time. so shouldnt be a problem i guess.
i've been stop working for NC for a few months haha. been looking for another stable part time job but couldnt find a gd one. sigh.. i guess i shall continue to search patiently. as for the surveyor job. well it's v gd. as in the pay is damn gd haha. but it's not v stable i think. becos the company gives me the impression that they only needs surveyors when there r projects to be done. but well since im only a newcomer i still dont know much about the company. so i shall continue to stick around n see what has it got to offer. ;)
alright i think that's all haha. gd night! to be continued.. :D

25 - 31 Dec

alright! finally my dearest laptop is working properly since i've manage to recover the laptop's original setting. ;) been "missing" for some time due to some internet problems haha. anyway i think i've fix all the problems. everything should be alright by now.
ok here's what happen to me while i was "missing in action". :X
25 Dec: MERRY XMAS! :D met up with her in the afternoon at orchard n had an early dinner tgt. after dinner we did some shopping here n there til evening n then we went to see the lightings n decorations along the street. at the same i was also being "tortured" by her. both physically n mentally. it always happen whenever i go out with her. poor me huh? lol! anyway we took some pictures tgt til around 9pm n went home after that. n also. i gave her a necklace as a xmas gift while she gave me a pair of bermudas. :) :)
31 Dec 08 - 1 Jan 09: was working as a surveyor at sentosa. got 20 surveys to be done. cant go home unless i complete of them. if not no pay haha. i was paid $8 per survey btw. so at 1st i thought i could complete them within like 3 hrs. but i was terribly wrg. becos 1 survey consist of like 8 pages n 1 page has got about 10 qns. so i worked for 6 loooong hrs instead. fr 9pm til 3am. zzz..
after i had completed all the surveys i wanted to go home but i couldnt. i thought that the manager would give us transport allowance on that day. but i was wrg again. the transport allowace is only given to me on the day i recieve my pay. as in the $20 transport allowance will be added into my pay. n plus i didnt bring enough cash with me. so i got no choice but to stay overnight at sentosa.
but lucky enough there's a crew resting area for me. so i slept over there til 7am n went home after that. was damn tired the next day haha. but anyway. HAPPY NEW YR! :D
i think that's all i could remember. lol. :X anyway to be continued.. lol!