Relax Only..

forget it. the more i think about it. the more vexing it gets. i just do whatever i can n i'll see how it goes. no point worrying too much. 船到桥头自然直. that should be the solution. smart right? hehehe! X)
hmm recently i realise that my ex-classmates from other polys n courses seems to be v busy with projects n school work. why is it so huh? i find it v weird becos i still have free time even though im in the 3rd yr of my course. lol.
ok now let's see. my fyp is almost done. only left with a report to do. testing of the hull model. n getting some materials n stuffs. should be able to complete it on time. i hope so. :X
initially we wanted the do the model ourselves. but later on we realise that all of us do not have the required skills to produce the complicated model. even if we were to do it ourselves i can guarantee that the model will be v f-ugly. n it'll take us ages to complete it.
so in the end. we decided to hire professional to help us with the model. i know it's kind of like cheating but seriously the model is not easy. if we can do it ourselves we would have do it. hey im a man with integrity ok! ;) including my group members as well lah.
here r some pictures of the model. all the credit goes to SZ for coming out with the dimensions n the cartoon images.

this is the outer part of the hull. ^

this is the inner part of the hull. ^

when u put them tgt. it's sth like this. ^

we collected the transparent acrylic hull model last week. n omg! it's sooo damn beautiful. but of cos everything comes with a price. n the model set us back by 320 bucks. oh no! there's a hole in my piggy bank! sigh.. it hurts to see my 60 bucks broke away from my piggy bank just like that.. :'(
ok next is report writing. every week there will be a report for the class to do becos of the practical lesson. n guess what. the whole class just copy from each other's report. lol. cool huh? so overall there's nth much to do i guess. even the assignments r copied from 1 another. but for me it's different. i do the assignments myself ok! ;D
sigh.. term test is coming in a few weeks time n it's time to whack the lecture notes. this is the last sem n i got to buck up. so anyway that's all. to be continued..

Staying Positive

i've got lots of stuff to say today. but i'll keep it short n sweet n straight to the point.
im feeling v sick about my life. i feel that i sux. be it personality or appearance or anything that has got to do with me.
i want to improve my living conditions n myself. but i lack $$. n sometimes even though the mind is willing. but the body is weak. sigh..
y am i like that huh??
i thank God for every single thing i have currently. but at the same time. i want to improve. i dont want to be a complacent n remain stagnant. but again. the mind is willing. but the body is weak.
i hope what im doing now is on track. im working part time to earn a bit of income for myself. im putting effort into my studies. i exercise 3-4 days per week to tone up my body. n i read books as well. even though i just need a little bit more discipline on these. so what else am i lacking? or perhaps i just need to be more patient?
speaking of studies. i feel that i havent get over my last sem disappointing results. i know myself. i seldom have this kind of "syndrome". but hey. this just shows that i did put in effort for my studies right?
anyway. overall we'll see how it goes. i pray (instead of hoping) that i've got the right plan in mind. becos if the plan is wrong. then all my effort will go down into the drain n i dont want that to happen.
i also pray that i can get the right results. n God pls bless me with more strength n courage to carry out the plan. if i ask n i'll receive right? since i've asked so pls give it to me k? haha. :P
ok to be continued..