Sigh..

to my beloved girl.
from the deepest bottom of my heart. i strongly believe that i did show u care n concern when u r feeling down or sick. though im v sry that i neglected u sometimes. but pls forgive me for that becos im a human too n i have my flaws n make mistakes.
im not a audio kind of person. so pls pardon me for not giving u any words of encouragement at times when u talk to me about ur problems n stuffs. becos i cant understand much about ur situation just from listening ur words. im more of a visual n action kind of person. i need to see n touch to understand. so i would need u to show me the situation if u need me to help u better. i hope u get what i mean.
n honestly i feel so stressed up whenever i talk to u. pls give me a break man. im not a criminal u know. so pls stop "interrogating" me can? isnt it better to talk n ask nicely? as in cant we talk a more casual way? rather than being so serious.

to my dearest father.
i know im not a great son of urs. but b4 u want to criticise me further. pls look at the mirror 1st can? n pls look at ur damn self. how do u want me to "set a gd example" for my younger brothers if u r not setting a gd example urself for me to follow. if im a bastard u'll be a fcuking hypocrite.
can i ask u to come n c the things from my point of view instead of just seeing it only from ur point of view? if u dont want to it's ok. i dont expect u to. but the worst is that u think that ur always right. come on lah. omg. seriously im so sick this idiotic attitude of urs i cant be bothered by u.
i admit that i make mistakes n i understand that u r scolding me for my own gd. i know that scolding is part n parcel of upbringing n growing up. i also know that u want me to be successful. n i thank u for that n providing me with a comfortable life. but i hope that u wont make me hate u becos that's the worst thing that can happen. i dont want to hate u ok. though my feelings for u now is neutral. as in there isnt any hatred nor much love. im still learning to accept u for who u r. so well give me some time. i dont know. zzz..

to my dearest mother.
i've always want to thank u for all that u've done for me. i do appreciate ur help n concern. i just want to say a big THANK YOU to u. :)

this sums up my mood n feelings for today. to be continued..