Staying Positive

i've got lots of stuff to say today. but i'll keep it short n sweet n straight to the point.
im feeling v sick about my life. i feel that i sux. be it personality or appearance or anything that has got to do with me.
i want to improve my living conditions n myself. but i lack $$. n sometimes even though the mind is willing. but the body is weak. sigh..
y am i like that huh??
i thank God for every single thing i have currently. but at the same time. i want to improve. i dont want to be a complacent n remain stagnant. but again. the mind is willing. but the body is weak.
i hope what im doing now is on track. im working part time to earn a bit of income for myself. im putting effort into my studies. i exercise 3-4 days per week to tone up my body. n i read books as well. even though i just need a little bit more discipline on these. so what else am i lacking? or perhaps i just need to be more patient?
speaking of studies. i feel that i havent get over my last sem disappointing results. i know myself. i seldom have this kind of "syndrome". but hey. this just shows that i did put in effort for my studies right?
anyway. overall we'll see how it goes. i pray (instead of hoping) that i've got the right plan in mind. becos if the plan is wrong. then all my effort will go down into the drain n i dont want that to happen.
i also pray that i can get the right results. n God pls bless me with more strength n courage to carry out the plan. if i ask n i'll receive right? since i've asked so pls give it to me k? haha. :P
ok to be continued..